Fool's Paradise.....

Am I living in a fool's paradise???
I sipped my coffee and presume for a few minutes. I waited patiently for him to reply for my message. I still remember those old days where he waited for my message or call all the time.I realized that the passage of time make this kind of transformation to anyone. So did I?
Some of the "genius" (you can take it ironically also) thinks that, blog is for those who doesn't have any other work to do. I want to show them a list of eminent personalities who still blog in their busy schedule.

• Jeff Bridges (Actor) - http://www.jeffbridges.com/
• Anna Kournikova - http://www.kournikova.com/journal/
• Amitabh Bachan (Actor) - http://www.bigb.bigadda.com/
• Moby (Musician) - http://www.moby.com/index2.html
• John Mayer (Singer) - http://johnmayer.com/blog

Yes, we were talking about the transformation. I looked up the wall clock, Its been more than an hour, he didnt reply. Frankly, I was stunned. I left the cellphone over the table and started to get up but the phone began to ring. I sat down again and picked it up.
'Hello'.
'Whats the matter?' He asked annoyingly. The familiar searing voice chewed at my ear.
'Nothing', Just want to say I miss you'.
'Bloody hell', I heard the murmur. 'Fine, anything else?' He asked again.
'Nothing else, hope you are fine' I tried to make him calm.
'I'm very much fine and am busy now, Bye'. He suspend the call. A drop of tear rolled out from my eyes.

"Aap ki yaad me maine kalam uthai
Liya kagaj, tasveer aapki banai,
Socha tha dil se laga ke rakhenge us tasveer ko,
Par vo to bacchoko darane ke kaam aayi...." :-)

Embracing His Passion

After a month's time, I decided to come back to my blog. I am going to share you some other experiences. When he went along with his new life, I went to a retreat centre for mental peace and to gain forgiveness. 1 week prayer meetings and counsellings. (As I said I was almost in a state of psychic or mental depression). For the first few days I didn’t feel any change in myself, again same thoughts, same sleepless nights and criying eyes. The lady, the warden of the ladies hostel in the retreat centre, helped me a lot to overcome my situation with hopes and advices.

Time passed,I met there a lot of people; mentally retarded, handicapped and with hell lot of problems. Around 500 AIDS patients, orphans, widows with no family support and old age people. I had no idea that the girl who was sitting near to me for the whole week, (she was very nice to me) was suffering from mental crisis. When I heard the touching story of each person, I thought, “What the f**king problem is mine??? Why am getting depressed for a lost love?” Just so dazed, this recognition, this awareness. I never felt so before.

“I asked God for strength that I might achieve. I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey. I asked for health that I might do greater things. I was given infirmity that I might do better things. I asked for power that I might have the praise of men. I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God. I asked for all things that I might enjoy life. I was given life that I might enjoy all things. I got nothing that I asked for, but everything I hoped for. Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered. I am, among all men, most richly blessed.”

After the one week meet,I went back to hostel and then to work.I realized that I dont feel much difference in my mental dilemma. But let it be! Challenges are way of life!

Beautiful Distraction

PART 1
When I met "Mr.H" for the first time, he was surrounded by a cluster of young men and women.Very liberating.I gave a glance at him, he doesn't seems to be responding to my fussy smile.I took my seat in the oblong bay, switching on the computer system.The girl sitting near to me "Ms.G" gave me a warm and pleasant smile.

Me : "Hello, My name is 'MK'. Nice to meet you".
G: "Hi, I am 'G'.

Our conversatoin continued like that and it didnt take much time for us to become friends (Its like that, I can make friends easily, Thats me, "MK"). But the best among them is always "Ms.R". "Mr.H", was very friendly with everyone. Our affair also started with a friendship, within a short span of time. I never thought that I will befall into such a close and deep relation.

PART 2